A Demon With A Heart Of An Angel

This is my story, my life , my past and future . From the day i was born i felted that i was not the same with others . I didn't mix with a lot of people but time goes by it change . I taught it was good but something didn't feel right like whatever i touch, say or do ends up bad . I realise it for quite some time but till 7 years back, i started to believe in that crap until I lost my best friend(Sarah) . I promise to her younger sis that i will never talk about it so ill will respect it and i will never talk about it. I miss her so much and I'm sorry . For all that years i thought i was cursed . I was afraid that i will hurt the people i cared about and i don't want the same thing happens again. What did I do ? Was I bad in my past life ? Its not fair to take the people that i care about and love . TAKE MY LIFE INSTEAD FOR HEAVEN SAKE !! All this time i thought whatever i do will turn out bad but some one who is close in my life told me "You might be a demon but u have an angels heart". Then i ask : " how come ? why do u said that ?" and she told me " Demons bring all lot of bad things but your not that demon to me, you touch my heart and i trust you that you will not hurt me in anyway " Tears come out from my eyes but lied to her said i was not crying or tearing . I promise myself that if anything happens to her that ill be there cause the last time i was a chicken and i ran away from it . Not this time I swear with my life !.

Blood

Blood ( Empty Promises)

I will forgive but I won't forget
And I hope you know you've lost my respect

You better watch out
If you don't know whats going on around you
You better think twice
Before you fly off the handle and lose it
You better join us
Before you get lost in the shuffle
You better rise against
The demons that are gonna try and hold you down

Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love?
Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love?
The ones you love, the ones you love, the ones you love

Cause I'm not a pawn for you to play in your fucking game
I've got dignity and a dream that I want to achieve
The pressure, your troubled and you let me down
I'm not deaf and all I hear are your empty promises

Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love?
Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love?
The ones you love, the ones you love, the ones you love

Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love?
Yes it runs in your blood to betray the ones you love!
Yes it runs in your blood to betray the ones you love!
Yes it runs in your blood to betray the ones you love!

I will forgive but I won't forget
And I hope you know you've lost my respect

Yes it runs in your blood to betray the ones you love
Yes it runs in your blood to betray the ones you love

Too All Who Back Stab Me I Will Forgive But I Will Not Forget And I hope You Know You've Lost My Respect. Close Friends Can Become Hardcore's Enemy . I use to say this last time " Your Enemy's enemy is your friend" Never Betray Me !!

LLS = Bad Part 2

Alright where there is good there is always bad,that's the sad part. Love Lust Sex = Bad now. But for me i don't blame people do this cause it human nature.

Love, okie the down fall or love is anger. Anger can make u do thing that you will regret. Love is not perfect you have 2 fight for it or you just fall . Jealousy is one of the most fatel dont fall for loves.Ill gave an example later in the end.

Lust , a lot of people can do things with lust bad or good . Well the bad part of lust is u don't think what u going 2 do to your partner. You just don't care if good or bad cause when u lust is in yourself you will lose control of every .

Sex, its the best part/juice part haha.. Sex can go bad trust me . You will enjoy it but when when u go back to reality if something happens there is no turning back . So PlaySafe hehe

Okie here is on example lar just cross my mind. Just say that you fall in love with your best friends wife, then lust come in both of u don't think what is wrong and right and next thing your know u had sex with her . Then 2 weeks after that she calls u telling that she pregnant with your child !! That's wicked wei !!

So control yourself haha .. don't take everything for granted. That all for now peace out

End Of Part 2

LLS = Good Part 1

Wow this my 4Th post in 1 day .. godlike haha .. LLS = Good. You all be wondering what the fuck is LLS ? LLS is Love Lust Sex , 3 common thing that everyone have . Let me ask your something how can u live without that 3 things ? We cant that's the problem, without love there is no lust and with lust hell no sex for you

Love , every need to beloved . Love can change you make u do thing u thought u can never do with someone , take you to new levels that u don't even know u can reach . Damn Love is strong i gave that for love . For me everyone should fall in love, without love then what the point of you living in this world if you don't have anything to love for!!

Lust , don't tell u all don't have that . haha young, old , new or pro lust is always in you. Just think how crazy u can go when your partner dress like a killa . Just imagine what lust can do to you .

Sex , haha every want to get laid being honest only. What good in it ? You will have a damn good time don't complain at all please don't !!

So that's LLS= Good haha. Well there is a bad side of it too . So await for LLS = Bad lolz

End oF PaRt 1

Between Angels And Devils

Angels & Devils who are they ? What are they ? Friends or Enemy ? Good Or Bad ? Do they excise ? Question after questions Who are they to man ? Answers easy everyone knows Angels is good and devils are bad. To me that's all bull shit cause they are all the same, you want to know why ? To men they do excise in them self cause with them we will not know if this world is good or bad .

If Angels,Archangels&Dominion rule this world, this world will be perfect and i know believe me this blady world is never a perfect place . Imagine rapist, murders, robbers & wars vanish just like that . Yes is good, we do want to live in that kind world but think about Passion, lust , rage , affairs, anger & sex vanish like that too, do thing human can survive ? 100% no .

Lucifer The Fallen Angel, he was an angel but he fell and he became the ruler of hell. Its because of him we can have all that . How can we live without passion , lust & sex . Without that we be like the dinosaurs in 2050 a.d gone non alive . To some people Passion, lust & sex is a sin, they say is the work of the devil no wonder some people choice to gays and lesbians , wait now is that sin or not ? Gay or lesbian ? I don't want to know

To me Angels and Devils do excise in all of us . Without them we cant live , we make our choices in life if its good or bad . I'm a non believer but i know they are around us everywhere watch us, guiding us true life . They are neutral we only choice that we want to come Good or Bad.

FriendsForLife

Jes My Loving Sister . Love ya a lot !


Eva My Pet Sis & My Gothic Angel In Crime hehe Love ya



Jill My BestFriend Thank For Everything Angel



Me, Nadia & Pui Kar .



Nat and Me At Jusco Jb



Me And Vanessa I miss you gurl And Thank For Having My Back



Tasha I miss You A Lot



The Gang
From left Up : CodyAka Bear Bear , Shulyn , Me , Wilson Aka Mad ass & Chingyi
From left Down : Eve , Bernard aka Fat Fark & Jessie

FriendsForLife

Friends ... Who are your friends ? Do know ? Some friends can be so close to you and some of them just want to fuck around with you . But thank god i don't have friends like that. Some of them are there with me till the end and some of them guide me true rough time. They are real friends who will have my back for life. There is one more person but i dont have his picture, he's name is kenneth . He is good friend to me and for a long time and im glad that he still is.

Peace out For now Keep Rocking !

Walk Away

Haha i thought i never blog in my entire life but what the heck lar .. I walk away from many things in my life . I nearly gave up for all means of living. I lost a lot of stuff along the way friends,close friends,family, best friends u name it but some how i have the strength 2 move on . I was wondering where on the blady hell i had this strength . Where did come from ?Was from me or from Someone .. It took me 5 years . 5 blady long years i wait for for an answer and yesterday i did answer it .. Well the answer is both . I met some one last week she was a miracle worker . I just knew her for a week plus but she made me realise something in me that was long lost in myself. Anger, Vengeance and Sadness was in my heart but somehow she go pass all that. Its like wherever there is darkness there is always light. This part of me was sealed from all the hate and now it out once more . Its been so long and I'm glad is out, its a good time after all i been true this year. Thank you angel ( u know who your are).

Well u been wondering why is this title is Walk Away. There is a song i don't think a lot of people hear it . They are Mad Of Gravity. The song the sang was Walk Away . Somehow it made me who i am now . Here is the

Lyric for Walk Away From Mad Of Gravity

Find me
I'm falling
And fooling myself that its flight
Imperfect
I plummet
And ponder
Pushed away on principle

Walk away and i stare
Would you stand me up again?
Wonder if I've said too much
And we never speak again

Forfeit
My furute
For feelings of few far between
Mindless of merciful Measures
Making ends preempt the means
And i searched your eyes for and answer
And shuddered at what i found there
As my skin shrunk away from conclusion
That you lack the strength to care

Walk Away and i stare
Would you stand me up again?
Wonder if I've said too much
And we'll never speak again

This is the way it has to be
That you would turn your back on me
And you and i hould walk away

Walk away and i stare
Would you stand me up again?
Wonder if I've said too much
And we'll never speak again
Never speak again
Never speak again

Some how this song gave strength to move on .. Well that will be for now .Peace out hehe